Friday, March 18, 2011

No Pain, No Gain........

Well it's Friday afternoon, two days after treatment and I made it through the work day :)  The bone pain started this morning and got worse as the day went on but I made it!!!!  Now I'm ready for my yummy narcotic, heating pad and a Pizza Hut pepperoni pizza, lol.  Taxol may cause pain but I'm not nauseated AT ALL, praise the Lord.  I've gained 10 lbs since starting chemotherapy, good grief.  I feel a diet coming on after this is all over. 

I feel so blessed today.  I have so many people who truly care about me.  I have the best work family who look after me and encourage me every day.  They mean the world to me. 

Only 2 more treatments to go, I can't believe it.  Wow, this has been such a life changing event and not in a bad way.  I've met so many wonderful people as a result of my cancer and have a complete different appreciation of life, family and friends.  So, a little bone pain will NOT get me down...... No pain, no gain...and I have a lot to gain.  I have already won this battle, I'm claiming it right now!!!!

Wishing everyone a wonderful, restful weekend.  I'm looking forward to Spring Break next week and a few days in Hot Springs with great friends.  Life is GREAT, thank you Jesus.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Calm Before the Storm

Sitting here dreading chemo tomorrow.  It's so hard to do something you know is going to make you feel so bad, but yet you know it will save your life so you go with a smile on your face.....okay maybe the smile is a stretch.

I wanted to have some pictures of me during this season of life.  My sister never took a picture of herself, bald, while going through chemo.  I want to document my fight and victory, so Bryan and I had some pictures made.  Here is the scrapbook I made so I can look back on this time and smile.

Tomorrow is chemo day, say a prayer that it goes well and that I don't have much pain afterwards.

Love to all...... Connie

Monday, March 7, 2011

Back to the World of the Living.......

Thank you for the concerned e-mails I've received.  I know it's been a while since I've posted, this last chemo treatment has really kicked my butt.

I had my first treatment with the new drug (poison) Taxol.  I was so nervous to receive this drug because it has a high rate of allergic reactions.  When I say allergic reactions, I mean allergic reactions.... swelling, difficulty breathing, low blood pressure, cardiac arrest.  They pumped me full of medications (Benadryl, steriods, anti-nausea med, Pepsid) before hand to hopefully avoid any reactions.  I was so drunk from the Benadryl I could hardly see straight, the room was spinning.  Well, it worked....I didn't have an allergic reaction, praise God.

Although nausea is less common with this drug, it causes bone/muscle pain and peripheral neuropathy.  By the time I got home from work on Friday I was so fatigued I could hardly move.  I actually had to sit in my car for a few minutes when I got home just to get enough strength to get out and walk into the house.  I've been short of breath with the slightest activity.  Then the bone/muscle pain came.  It felt like I had been hit by a truck, hurt to move at all.  I finally gave in (at the insistence of my husband) and took a pain pill on Saturday.  I'm trying to keep my head up but it's hard some days, it's getting very depressing.  It feels like all this poison is killing me.  It makes it so hard to walk into the cancer treatment center for my next treatment, knowing what it's going to make me feel like afterwards.  Pray that this cancer does not recur because I truly don't know if I could go through all this again.

The good news is, today is Monday and I feel much better.  I haven't had any peripheral neuropathy yet and pray that I don't.  I don't know how I will be able to work if I can't feel my fingers....  It's true what they say, "what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger".  Don't worry, I'm not slipping into the depths of depression....just tired of chemo and ready for it to be over.  Pray that my next treatment goes smoothly, without allergic reaction, and that the pain is minimal.  I appreciate all your prayers and caring messages.